Saturday, October 31, 2009
DH and I were able to steal a few moments to spend with Noah, feed and change him.
Departing photos - With BM
Noah's with Birth Mother
Noah's birth family has the best dogs!!! They have four total. Two St. Bernard's!
This is Blaire - she's only 10 months! Her sister is Finley (don't have a picture)
With social worker Linda
Blaire watching through the windowLate afternoon we headed home.
Friday, October 30, 2009
I've been trying to think of something more people can relate it to, to understand the feeling. I guess it was like waiting for the results back on a test that determines whether or not you have a terminal disease or someone you love more than anything is waiting for the results to the same test. Everything is a blur, your head hurts, your chest hurts, your throat is tight, you don't feel like eating or doing anything period. You just the wait to be over. You know there is nothing you can do about the end result it's just the answer you want.
We got to spend time with the birth family and Noah which was amazing, real and raw like nothing else. Aside from those times we honestly didn't even want to be awake but couldn't sleep.
Emotions were high and on Friday the pain and fears of this process came to a head, out in the open and discussed by all of us including the SW. It was so hard to hear our fears verbalized but it needed to be done. A plan was made for hospital release on Saturday.
I regret it now but we didn't take any pictures on Thursday and Friday. I don't think it was a conscience choice I just think we didn't want pictures of those days because it was so hard and in fear that it would forever be remembered on film.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Thank heavens for snuggly towels
Monday, October 26, 2009
Birth Grandmother giving us weight 8lbs. 6.5 oz
Getting a little oxygen
I want to say we were in front of the nursery window a good 45 minutes just watching and praying, unable to take our eyes off him.
We were able to immediately visit as soon as BM and Noah made it to their room.
BM giving Noah his first feeding
Proud Papa's first hold
Proud Mama's first hold
We were all so happy and blessed Noah was as healthy as could be. I'm not going to lie and say we weren't filled with even more fear. There we were loving this little guy not knowing if we will be able to love him as mom & dad forever.
All part of the journey:
For those who don't know, DH's favorite beer is Anchor Steam out of San Francisco. About two years ago the distributors in Missoula were no longer able to get it. Trust me, I asked every place in town that sells beer!
While giving BM and family time DH and I just drove around, doing our best to kill time. We didn't really want to do anything but we didn't want to do nothing either. Since Billings is a bigger village they definitely have more shopping opportunities. I suggested we stop at World Market to see what their beer selection looked like. Let's just say after we left they couldn't sell Anchor Steam either.
Still feeling like we wanted to do nothing...dinner consisted of scrambled eggs in a hotel room. It is very strange scrambling eggs in a hotel room!
Tuesday October 20, 2009, headed east to Billings, MT. It will be difficult to describe how either of us were feeling on our travel day or any other day of this journey. It was almost like we were feeling so much we couldn't feel anything. Fortunately grey weather calms the nerves.
In our typical "road trip" fashion we were right on schedule leaving the house. Our first stop was to drop off our fur-babies just outside of town. Then off to Billings.
We arrived in Billings just around 5PM - right on schedule. We stayed at an Extended StayAmerica in hopes we would cook more meals than eat out.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Please don't be alarmed if you don't see a post until Sunday or even Monday. I realize there are many of you who are (at least you think you are) as anxiously awaiting the little guys arrival as we are.
We will be in a far away land, I can't guarantee we will have much computer availability/time.
I assure you I will be taking pictures and writing everything down like CRAZY and you will have an update as soon as possible.
To all you prayers...please, please keep everyone in your prayers.
Later Gators!! JC
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I don't know how many years...guessing somewhere around 39
Happy Birthday Mr. Travis Swithenbank - 33
Welcome to the Word Miss Grace Marie (yesterday)
6 lbs (not sure of the oz's) 19 (something) inches. Grace is our 5th niece.
DH is not the best when it comes to relaying details.
Looking forward to having more to celebrate in the coming days.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Popped into Costco for a few things yesterday...some how my bill was double the usual amount and a quarter of that was diapers and wipes! Time's are a-changin'! We're so excited - never thought accouterments to feces could be so exciting. I'm obsessed with smelling all things baby...DH thinks I'm insane not only because of the sniffing but also I get excited for more wipe containers!!!
How many times did I just write exited or a version of? Can you tell how excited we are?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
If he hasn't blessed us with his presence by NEXT Tuesday BM will be admitted into the hospital late in the afternoon and the induction proceedings will begin early Wednesday morning. There's always the chance he can flip again! He's keeping us on our toes...this is just the beginning.
We are thrilled everyone is still doing great and thriving. We're excited for things to be progressing.
Despite our excitement we're starting to feel really worn down. We've been anticipating his arrival, based on what we've been told, for weeks. Our life has been in a holding patter thinking today could be the day. I guess we're feeling and going through what any expectant parents go through. It seems no matter the road you take to build a family the journey is similar.
I'm sure there's a silver lining with all this waiting....I haven't figured out what that is yet.
[ Thank you Deborah!
Hello, my name is Jennifer and I am a control freak. I am willingly giving myself up to this little angel who is controlling my life before I have even seen is cherub face. I have learned, for my child I will change my ways. ]
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
He doesn't count the USCG as a "real" job not because it's not respectable or "work" but because it's more of a club or counter culture. There's not a typical job interview but a physical test and training and they provided allowances for uniforms, food, housing etc. Plus his stint fell during a time in his life when his life responsibilities were minimal and his spirit was high. He can explain it better.
Anyway - He's nearly 31 and has never had a "real" job! He's very proud of himself about this.
His free ride is quickly coming to an end! The J-O-B hunt has begun. DH has had some very promising conversation with a couple major pharmacy retailers. Who knows if it will lead to an official job offer but it is exciting. Keep your fingers crossed - the end is in sight!!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I guess you could say winter is here - I don't think it's going to warm up a ton until next spring.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
I have been scrubbing all weekend! Everyone seems to think I'm nesting...that may be true however I think I would be doing this anyway. It's fall cleaning and more so than nesting I think it's an anxiety reliever!
Shampooing carpet is tougher than one would think. My forearms and biceps and surprisingly sore.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Today is Thursday, I'm not even sure it made it into the 50's!!! Seriously?!?! What happened to fall? Lolo Peak and Snow Bowl got snow yesterday!!!
Fire fire go away and never come back some day!